I am blessed. Sickness and All.
Im struggling tonight to write this post. I am trying my best to really appreciate the sickness in my pregnancy... before I had my miscarriage I wasn't feeling sick at all... in fact I had zero pregnancy symptoms and I remember saying "I would just feel better if I threw up just once so I knew baby was actually still there" so please don't get me wrong.. I really did want to be sick.. so I guess Im getting what I wished for. I feel like I need to write this... for myself more than anything. I NEED to remember what pregnancy is like. So here is my disclaimer...
I am Grateful for this baby. I am overjoyed with this pregnancy and I truly am thankful I am sick.. it takes my worries away. I am already so in love with this little Jelly Bean and I cannot wait to fin out if Baby is a Boy or a Girl! I feel so blessed in my life and I thank Heavenly Father every single day for everything he has given us. I try not to take any moment of this pregnancy for granted and I cannot wait to meet our newest little bundle of Joy. I am B.L.E.S.S.E.D!
Week 13 was pretty good.
This week marks a big Milestone... the second trimester! YAY! This week, baby's tiny vocal cords were developing but sounds will not be made for another 7 months. I only puked twice all week!! What an accomplishment and a part of me was really thinking that my sickness was starting to ease off a little bit...
...but now I'm into week 14 and reality has set back in.
Now... this is my little "Note to self" Pregnancy is HARD (for me at least). It really messes up everything about your body. I have lost total control of my emotions... one minute Im laughing with Brian so hard the next minute Im balling because I saw a cute baby on a diaper commercial. I am sick. I mean Super sick. I puke.. all the time.. everywhere... in traffic, in front of people and gag as Im standing in line at costco trying to find the best place to puke while carter is strapped into the carriage... Carter is also at the perfect age to "copy" .. everyday I try not to puke in front of him but sometimes it comes so fast that I have no choice... when he sees me do it.. he regularly goes to the windowsill (?) and gags until he seriously turns blue. I am totally struggling with my digestive system right now and have such a hard time digesting certain foods.. this is not easy at all... but man is it ever going to make me appreciate this sweet little miracle. Often times I tell Brian (as I am crying) "Hunny, I think I can only have 2 kids" ... I know when baby is here I will totally "forget" what pregnancy is really like... and yes, ill probably have more that just 2.. but maybe I will read this and be VERY prepared for what is to come.
Last night was awful. I was up form 2am to 6am with the worst cramping EVER! In fact I seriously thought I was going into preterm labour. The cramping hurt so bad that I could no stand and I would puke because of the pain. Something I have never experienced in my life. I pleaded with Heavenly Father to keep the baby safe and to make my stomach relax. After 4 hours, it did. I was able to rest a lot this morning, Carter was an angel all day (He always knows the best times to be so good for mommy & daddy) and I feel much better. The only thing that "kept me going" last night was thinking about the baby... and praying that he/she would be safe. Brian was a super big help too. Making me peppermint tea at 3 o'clock in the morning, getting me some water, sitting with me, rubbing my legs and praying for me. He is my rock.
I often think back to my pregnancy with Carter... how I was "really" sick (but not nearly as sick as this pregnancy) and how that was the only problem in my pregnancy. I am blessed. I would totally take the sickness if I could ensure I had a healthy baby. I understand the importance of not complaining and really treasuring this pregnancy as much as you can... and I am trying really hard to do that.
I try to look forward to the fun times in your pregnancy like.. ultrasounds, and hearing baby's heart beat, finding out the gender of baby and decorating the room! I am lucky, I know that I am.. please don't get me wrong.
Ok, Ive had my rant. Now for the update. Carter has REALLY starting to mimic you. The other Day he said "Water" "Hot" and when we were watching the movie Cars he said "Gas".. they were talking about gasoline. He also rarely called me "MaMa" anymore and has started to call me "mommy" ... I LOVE it!!! Now that the weather is getting nicer, I try to take him to the park everyday.. sick or not. He ADORES the park! He is also really into this cute backpack that his Grandma Reed brought over for him.. it used to be Brian's backpack when he was little. C.U.T.E!
I am blessed. Sickness and All.
This week marks a big Milestone... the second trimester! YAY! This week, baby's tiny vocal cords were developing but sounds will not be made for another 7 months. I only puked twice all week!! What an accomplishment and a part of me was really thinking that my sickness was starting to ease off a little bit...
...but now I'm into week 14 and reality has set back in.
Now... this is my little "Note to self" Pregnancy is HARD (for me at least). It really messes up everything about your body. I have lost total control of my emotions... one minute Im laughing with Brian so hard the next minute Im balling because I saw a cute baby on a diaper commercial. I am sick. I mean Super sick. I puke.. all the time.. everywhere... in traffic, in front of people and gag as Im standing in line at costco trying to find the best place to puke while carter is strapped into the carriage... Carter is also at the perfect age to "copy" .. everyday I try not to puke in front of him but sometimes it comes so fast that I have no choice... when he sees me do it.. he regularly goes to the windowsill (?) and gags until he seriously turns blue. I am totally struggling with my digestive system right now and have such a hard time digesting certain foods.. this is not easy at all... but man is it ever going to make me appreciate this sweet little miracle. Often times I tell Brian (as I am crying) "Hunny, I think I can only have 2 kids" ... I know when baby is here I will totally "forget" what pregnancy is really like... and yes, ill probably have more that just 2.. but maybe I will read this and be VERY prepared for what is to come.
Last night was awful. I was up form 2am to 6am with the worst cramping EVER! In fact I seriously thought I was going into preterm labour. The cramping hurt so bad that I could no stand and I would puke because of the pain. Something I have never experienced in my life. I pleaded with Heavenly Father to keep the baby safe and to make my stomach relax. After 4 hours, it did. I was able to rest a lot this morning, Carter was an angel all day (He always knows the best times to be so good for mommy & daddy) and I feel much better. The only thing that "kept me going" last night was thinking about the baby... and praying that he/she would be safe. Brian was a super big help too. Making me peppermint tea at 3 o'clock in the morning, getting me some water, sitting with me, rubbing my legs and praying for me. He is my rock.
I often think back to my pregnancy with Carter... how I was "really" sick (but not nearly as sick as this pregnancy) and how that was the only problem in my pregnancy. I am blessed. I would totally take the sickness if I could ensure I had a healthy baby. I understand the importance of not complaining and really treasuring this pregnancy as much as you can... and I am trying really hard to do that.
I try to look forward to the fun times in your pregnancy like.. ultrasounds, and hearing baby's heart beat, finding out the gender of baby and decorating the room! I am lucky, I know that I am.. please don't get me wrong.
Ok, Ive had my rant. Now for the update. Carter has REALLY starting to mimic you. The other Day he said "Water" "Hot" and when we were watching the movie Cars he said "Gas".. they were talking about gasoline. He also rarely called me "MaMa" anymore and has started to call me "mommy" ... I LOVE it!!! Now that the weather is getting nicer, I try to take him to the park everyday.. sick or not. He ADORES the park! He is also really into this cute backpack that his Grandma Reed brought over for him.. it used to be Brian's backpack when he was little. C.U.T.E!
I am blessed. Sickness and All.
